This whole pandemic has got me acting all paranoid and anxious (well, more so than usual). True, even before this, I was largely introverted and didn't leave the house much except when necessary, but at least then I had the opportunity to go outside. And since I moved into my own apartment last year, I've been at least trying to talk to strangers when i go to a bar to watch sports or something.
I was also saving up and planning to go on vacation at the end of June. I haven't taken any time off from my current job since I got it over a year ago, with the exception of holidays. I was really looking forward to it, but now, who knows if I can even do that? Will this virus still be around? Will we all still be stuck at home this entire summer, aka the time of the year I enjoy going outside?
I know I dont have it worse than others. I'm fortunate that not only can I work form home, but I've also done it a few times in the past, so I haven't really skipped a beat there. I know people who have lost their jobs or small business. But still...
And the worst part? No one in this country is going to learn a fucking thing from this. As long as the stock market stays high and the virus goes away before the election, American voters will assume all is well and re-elect Trump, who will proceed to gloat about how great of a job he did fighting the corona Chinese virus and that Sleepy Joe would have made a fool of himself if he were in charge, and go ahead and cut funding from WHO and CDC since he clearly knows better than the "experts".
And then Wave 2 of the virus will come along next winter, and we'll be even less prepared, and we'll be back to square zero.
Fuck, man. Just...fuck.