TheLeon Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I propose an International Stepee Day. Once a year, we all pick a local park, and just sit under a tree for an afternoon. 2 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Biggie Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 It was literally like when he got all the settlement lawsuit money from his leg injury he included all of us. Gifts, games, even money. He ordered me a Series X and had it shipped to my house. For no reason other than he said he knew I’d love it and he wanted me to tell him about it. Fuck I’ve had a range of emotions today. Anger, shock, and unbelievable sadness that someone who absolutely loved life and now had the means to enjoy it to the fullest without the worries of working or not being able to afford it. He would tease me when I would bitch about Monday coming up and having to go back to work. Goddamn I’m going to miss that. @stepee my heart truly is broken for you my buddy. 3 9 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brick Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 8 hours ago, TheLeon said: It feels so surreal. Like, I haven’t really processed it, and I probably won’t for quite a while. It’s such an odd feeling, because after posting with y’all for what is now a considerable percentage of my life, I still don’t really know any of you, yet at the same time you’re basically my closest friends (god, this thread is really making me realize upsetting things about myself ). Every loss is a stark reminder to live your love to the fullest. Seize the day, “live, laugh, love”, all of that crap: they have a point! You never know how much time you have left, so make the most of it. For example, it’s comforting to know that, for all of his struggles, at least stepee knew how good it feels to buy video games for me. It is certainly a weird feeling, and gives a bit of an existential crisis wondering who would mourn me if I passed away? What would people say? Who would show up to my funeral? Would the people here find out somehow, or would people just think I stopped logging in? Would they even notice if I stopped posting? 1 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I miss Stephen so much and I can’t believe he is gone. I joined this forum one day in 2011 by total fluke and we connected early on and became fast friends. I know we got up to a lot of silly nonsense together and trolling especially in the early days but behind the scenes he was a always true, real and consistent friend. There were some harder times especially when addiction came into play, but our friendship always prevailed. I knew I could always come to him for anything. I’m lucky to have had a close friend like him for so long and that we got to support each other through so many ups and downs in life. We celebrated accomplishments, and supported eachother through the hard times. I’m so glad he came out to visit me and waffles and my husband last month and we had a wonderful time at the beach. I will cherish those memories forever. I am heartbroken and devastated and still in total shock. This pain is too much. It is really nice to read all these messages of love about him. I’m going to share some with his mom tomorrow especially @Brian’s donations and his messages about them. That was really sweet. This just feels like a nightmare and I keep waiting for someone to tell me that there’s been a mistake and he’s still here. I don’t really know what my point of posting this here is, I guess it’s just nice to have people to mourn with who knew him well. 22 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DPCyric Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I don't even have any words... just tears. 1 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kal-El814 Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 33 minutes ago, Andrea said: I miss Stephen so much and I can’t believe he is gone. I joined this forum one day in 2011 by total fluke and we connected early on and became fast friends. I know we got up to a lot of silly nonsense together and trolling especially in the early days but behind the scenes he was a always true, real and consistent friend. There were some harder times especially when addiction came into play, but our friendship always prevailed. I knew I could always come to him for anything. I’m lucky to have had a close friend like him for so long and that we got to support each other through so many ups and downs in life. We celebrated accomplishments, and supported eachother through the hard times. I’m so glad he came out to visit me and waffles and my husband last month and we had a wonderful time at the beach. I will cherish those memories forever. I am heartbroken and devastated and still in total shock. This pain is too much. It is really nice to read all these messages of love about him. I’m going to share some with his mom tomorrow especially @Brian’s donations and his messages about them. That was really sweet. This just feels like a nightmare and I keep waiting for someone to tell me that there’s been a mistake and he’s still here. I don’t really know what my point of posting this here is, I guess it’s just nice to have people to mourn with who knew him well. Thanks for letting Wade know what happened. I know you two were close; I’m so sorry you lost a friend. He was loved here and he’ll be sorely missed. I hope you’re doing as well as you can be. 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SaysWho? Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 stepee's cameo cracks me up every time 9 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maddux4163 Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 Wow. He was a great friend for a very long time. So sorry to hear. Wish I could add something meaningful. But I’ll just say, time to rest buddy, we will take it from here. Love ya always. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Keyser_Soze Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I had a weird dream and perhaps related to Wade saying he was going to reach out to Kyle Bosman but we were trying to look into Stepee's Patreon and then we discovered he was in talks with some artist to turn D1P into an anime character. So we were trying to contact the artist ourselves to tell him what happened to him. 2 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TUFKAK Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 41 minutes ago, SaysWho? said: stepee's cameo cracks me up every time Still looking? 😉 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
thewhyteboar Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I didn't interact with him a ton since I don't post a lot on this board, but he always made me laugh. His posts could get me to actually (literally) make me laugh out loud. Devastating. I feel for those who knew him best. 2 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I keep going from being totally numb and in denial, to moments where it all hits me and I feel like my heart is being physically ripped apart by bare hands inside my chest. 2 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SoberChef Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 8 hours ago, Brick said: It is certainly a weird feeling, and gives a bit of an existential crisis wondering who would mourn me if I passed away? What would people say? Who would show up to my funeral? Would the people here find out somehow, or would people just think I stopped logging in? Would they even notice if I stopped posting? Appreciate you saying aloud what I secretly thought myself yesterday. 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysDyingX Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 9 hours ago, TheLeon said: I propose an International Stepee Day. Once a year, we all pick a local park, and just sit under a tree for an afternoon. Im just going to make sure my municipality people are not working that day 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheLeon Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 11 minutes ago, AlwaysDyingX said: Im just going to make sure my municipality people are not working that day Putting out some safety cones would be a major component, for sure. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Keyser_Soze Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I think of that thread where Stepee went to Ireland and Gamer.tv said to stand at the coast at a specific time and wave and they could wave to each other. I hope that actually went down. It feels like it takes on a different meaning now. 😢 2 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Commissar SFLUFAN Posted August 25 Author Share Posted August 25 Yup - still crying An idea that @Andrea and I had to show our community's support for his family would be to send them actual handwritten letters and notes to show them just how many different lives their son touched in so many different places. Handwritten letters and notes represent a truly human connection that a typewritten one simply cannot capture...unless your handwriting is absolutely illegible dogshit - then you have permission to send a typewritten one Because of her direct connection to the family, I'll defer to Andrea in obtaining the mailing address for us. 1 1 7 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Best Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 6 minutes ago, Commissar SFLUFAN said: Yup - still crying An idea that @Andrea and I had to show our community's support for his family would be to send them actual handwritten letters and notes to show them just how many different lives their son touched in so many different places. Handwritten letters and notes represent a truly human connection that a typewritten one simply cannot capture...unless your handwriting is absolutely illegible dogshit - then you have permission to send a typewritten one Because of her direct connection to the family, I'll defer to Andrea in obtaining the mailing address for us. That's a great idea. I can write but it's turned into caveman writing at this point. Will we ever know how he passed or is that being kept private? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CitizenVectron Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 11 minutes ago, Commissar SFLUFAN said: Yup - still crying An idea that @Andrea and I had to show our community's support for his family would be to send them actual handwritten letters and notes to show them just how many different lives their son touched in so many different places. Handwritten letters and notes represent a truly human connection that a typewritten one simply cannot capture...unless your handwriting is absolutely illegible dogshit - then you have permission to send a typewritten one Because of her direct connection to the family, I'll defer to Andrea in obtaining the mailing address for us. That's a very nice idea. 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The def star Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 This is a shock as @stepeewas a staple of this community. Him and @Keyser_Soze always kept the conversations going even into the late night hours. Stepee always extended a hand to anyone who was in need of acceptance. He did it with me back in the day when he would tell everyone to "Treat yo self" and let everyone know that having a big dick was a major inconvenience. Your humor and generosity will be missed. Vaya con dios @stepee 2 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Commissar SFLUFAN Posted August 25 Author Share Posted August 25 16 minutes ago, Best said: Will we ever know how he passed or is that being kept private? That's a call that Andrea should make if she learns about it. I'm not going to press the matter. 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ominous Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 Man, I have no words other than 2024 can fuck right off. Lost a cousin in his 30s and my wife's cousin in his early 40s already this year and now this. 9 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Best Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 14 minutes ago, Commissar SFLUFAN said: That's a call that Andrea should make if she learns about it. I'm not going to press the matter. I completely understand. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TUFKAK Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 1 hour ago, Commissar SFLUFAN said: Yup - still crying An idea that @Andrea and I had to show our community's support for his family would be to send them actual handwritten letters and notes to show them just how many different lives their son touched in so many different places. Handwritten letters and notes represent a truly human connection that a typewritten one simply cannot capture...unless your handwriting is absolutely illegible dogshit - then you have permission to send a typewritten one Because of her direct connection to the family, I'll defer to Andrea in obtaining the mailing address for us. I’ve been a nurse so long my handwriting is legit dog shit so I will be typing one cause, just like the cbp agent recently had, what I write will be utterly confusing as if trying to read cuneiform. 1 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Best Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I will have to type mine as well. I haven't written anything in over 20yrs. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
legend Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 My hand writing has been awful my entire life, but I'll still write one by hand. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TUFKAK Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 Just now, legend said: My hand writing has been awful my entire life, but I'll still write one by hand. I’m not joking; the cbp agent looked at my sign in and went, “uhhh, what?” Yeah that’s me man here’s my passport sorry. 2 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Best Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 This brings up another memory of stepee. He sent me a memory stick in an envelope and he was embarrassed about his hand writing on the envelope to address me. I was pleasantly surprised by the wring and it was perfectly fine and I made sure to tell him that. I have the envelope in my desk and I will always keep it in memory of his absolutely amazing generosity. 2 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spawn_of_Apathy Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 11 hours ago, Brick said: It is certainly a weird feeling, and gives a bit of an existential crisis wondering who would mourn me if I passed away? What would people say? Who would show up to my funeral? Would the people here find out somehow, or would people just think I stopped logging in? Would they even notice if I stopped posting? I have those intrusive thoughts quite commonly. This situation definitely doesn’t help. I’ve often wondered if I should leave instructions for family to find that somebody might pop in to say I was gone. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TUFKAK Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 6 minutes ago, Spawn_of_Apathy said: I have those intrusive thoughts quite commonly. This situation definitely doesn’t help. I’ve often wondered if I should leave instructions for family to find that somebody might pop in to say I was gone. I’ve definitely updated my fiancé that she either needs to text @CastlevaniaNut18 or post here if I ever pass away unexpectedly now. 1 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Andrea Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 1 hour ago, Best said: That's a great idea. I can write but it's turned into caveman writing at this point. Will we ever know how he passed or is that being kept private? His family doesn’t even know yet. There are a few possibilities. Police are investigating and trying to determine the exact cause. Not knowing is a really uncomfortable limbo to be in but I hope we can find out soon. 2 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Biggie Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 I’ll hand write a letter @Commissar SFLUFAN 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Best Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 3 minutes ago, Andrea said: His family doesn’t even know yet. There are a few possibilities. Police are investigating and trying to determine the exact cause. Not knowing is a really uncomfortable limbo to be in but I hope we can find out soon. Thank you. I feel really sad for you Andrea. I know he was like a brother to you. I'm so glad you guys had a chance to meet up and have a beautiful memory together. What a sweet human being he was. I woke up this morning and said to myself, "something is wrong". My brain wasn't awake yet and then it popped in my head Stephen passed away. I broke down in tears. I'm glad you have your husband with you to help you through this. I know even him had a relationship with Stephen. God bless you my friend. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Biggie Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 20 minutes ago, Best said: This brings up another memory of stepee. He sent me a memory stick in an envelope and he was embarrassed about his hand writing on the envelope to address me. I was pleasantly surprised by the wring and it was perfectly fine and I made sure to tell him that. I have the envelope in my desk and I will always keep it in memory of his absolutely amazing generosity. Great memory. I remember when he had the Xbox shipped the label said Biggie Smalls. 1 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Best Posted August 25 Share Posted August 25 Just now, Biggie said: Great memory. I remember when he had the Xbox shipped the label said Biggie Smalls. Aww. I didn't know that. Sigh Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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