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  • Birthday 02/12/1986

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  1. I’ve been absolutely dying to share stuff with people, so this thread is a dream, and I’m just gonna not hold back… My favorite band in the universe, The Pillows, and a few of my absolute faves of theirs… Then I was remembering some old faves, L’arc En Ciel - Asian Kung Fu Generation And just so no one thinks I only like Japanese music for some stupid reason, here is Screaming Females, Amanda Palmer, Swan Lake, Oddisee, Modest Mouse, and one more and I’m done for now lol.
  2. It’s magical, and the way I’ve come to think of heating the glass bowl is to just patiently summon Calcifer from Howl’s Moving Castle…By stoking the bottom of the glass with the blue flame from the torch until you start to see red flame building, and you kind of just entice him to come out until he is dancing around the bottom of the glass, and then you stop. Calcifer did his job and then you take a tiny pinch of the various waxes and oils and crystal things, apply to the heated glass, there’s a tiny glass bulb-tube thing to really regulate air flow and you make magic happen immediately. And they all have different flavors and effects, it’s like a dream…
  3. You were more than useful, you saved the day. I’ll never forget it, friend, thank you.
  4. Nah, man, you’re fine. Thank you all for listening, the urgency of this post was because my defensive response spiked through the roof but I think I just settled things. It was Keyser-Soze’s idea about making Norma an emotional support animal that saved me I think. Once the old witch realized she wouldn’t be able to threaten to separate me from Norma, it was over, she sat there pitifully defeated. And now I feel like I can settle. Settled enough now to start using these amazing art supplies now and see what I can do… Also, ask me about my magical new dabbing option that is so simple and efficient, it’s a key back to that other reality I miss so much, and I’m already a master at using it.
  5. I haven’t looked into anything but I have a medical card and it’s the best shit ever and 2 decades ago it would’ve saved my life. So, problem?
  6. Oh thank Christ, the same page! Lol I am actually totally fine and happy at the moment in my room which I turned into an art studio, and me and Norma are having the best time. And the plan was exactly to just set up my account on Monday cause I have 0 access right now to MY money… But that’s not the real plan, I probed further and she is planning to take legal action, again, on Monday till I agree to be back on medication, so, she’s threatening to separate me from Norma, again… And I swear to you, at this point, God help any useless piece of heartless garbage that would try to take me away from this cat again. I won’t accept it, she needs me, and I’ll defend her with my fucking life.
  7. Yes, that is the starting point I don’t want to be at and I’m saying I have no idea how to even proceed, and if all anyone is telling me is to do it on my own how is that help?? I am asking for help!
  8. I’m really feeling discouraged…You guys all claimed to understand me and these responses show that you doubt my word and are assuming I am acting crazy and maybe more meds are the answer and you’re breaking my fucking heart.
  9. ok now I can clarify. The last decade. Doctors, therapists, locked in psych wards, every med they could think of, electro shock fucking therapy, none of it helped and it all crippled and nearly destroyed me. But I have sorted through my own issues in my own mind and the point is I feel happier than EVER before! I lost over 50 pounds, I’ve been exercising again, I quit cigarettes for good! Me and Norma are doing amazing, finally… and this vile cunt is threatening once again, with no legal leg to stand on, to take action again cause she wants me to take more meds till my defiant attitude is killed, like always, always, always… That’s what I was asking for help with…how do I defend against this shit this time?
  10. What kind of medical care?? There is nothing wrong with either of us! I just got her to the point where she is happy and purring and coming outside with me, and I’m healthier than I’ve ever, ever been, but for being under the heel of this nightmare woman… That’s the solution you’re offering me?…
  11. I’ve been recording conversations and telling everyone and just posted this on fb and no one will help, so maybe better luck here, but I doubt it. I’m really not ok, I’m in pain and afraid… The hideous person I’m for some reason chained to, who keeps insisting she’s my mother has left me to sit with another threat. We agreed the plan was she would set me up with my own bank account and let me use my own money that I received for literally not being able to work for a decade, free from her supervision and needing her permission, as if that is something crazy for a 37 year old man to ask for? And she would leave me alone… But probe just a little more and her real plan was to try and take legal action again and force me back into a psych ward so they can force feed me more meds to suppress my bad attitude. But, it’s Norma. She is so happy and peaceful at the moment, and I had to nurse her back to this after being locked up away from her for a week… And now she’s threatening to try and do this again and hurt Norma and I’m feeling defeated. My body can’t take this, it’s on insanely high alert. And it hurts so much… Maybe I’ll try one more time to explain to everyone that this cat means more than the world to me. And people start to aww or roll their eyes and fuck you heartless monsters forever. She is not even “my” cat. She’s a beautiful creature who ended up living in my room, my dungeon, when I was in the pits, hating everything, wondering why no one was ever there for me, praying every time I went to sleep to just not wake up again to more pain… And she would come snuggle with me and eventually start purring, she was abused and abandoned to, and it was like she was saying you’re the only one who has been nice to me, and I trust you. And that’s how it started 10 years ago, and it grew beyond words. When she leaves the world, I don’t know how my heart will even continue to beat. And once again I face the threat of being separated from her and how am I to react, and why won’t anyone help me, I obviously can’t fucking solve this one, and I NEED HELP PLEASE.
  12. I know dude, I have a million options, and she can’t do anything…I’m just trying to settle this so I can be alone in my room with Norma and I don’t have to look at her stupid, ugly face. Which, here I am in my room anyway, exploring my magical new dab options, and how does she think she’ll stop me? It’s a complete joke but still, the stubbornness to surrender power is pure insanity…
  13. Why is it her house her rules? I’m only here at all cause I was unable to work for a decade trying to sort through crippling mental health issues…so eventually I started receiving a small amount of assistance, and that’s supposed to be my money but I still need her permission to access it? this is endless bullshit.
  14. Ok. I really need help. She just made it clear that I can’t even do my own thing in my own little room which is all I asked for, but she won’t let me have an open flame in my room… Which is an absolute joke cause I’m using this safe new torch thing just to heat a tiny piece of glass cause I’m using dab wax now cause it’s so much more efficient. but she keeps coming back to not allowing me to do that in my room safely and comfortably, cause gee golly I might start a fire in HER house and god fucking dammit. I’ve never hated anyone so much in my life…how can I press charges or something? Seriously, at this point…
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